i thought jan2x was different from other guys but they're all the same. He has another girl && i dont fuckin know that until he told me yesterday. what a shit!! I thought he's not like that, he's lucky enough that i caught his attention and say yes to his court. But what the hell???its over. I did expect that we will broke up for good because he's goin to give more time and attention to his family and friends. But telling me that he has someone else is much harder than I thought. Carlo was better than him coz he lied that he has a cancer and his dying and not tellling me that he has another girl. I admit, i was blind because i never had any idea about it. Though he told me about the other girl, he said sorry. But sorry can never forgive him. He hurt me as hell. I hate him! I should never believe him in the first place. I totally cried because of the thought that he defended the girl more than me, he chose the girl and not me..it means he love the girl more than me. What's with me that I dont have from his girl??is it the sex they shared?? yeah,,i dont have any experience about that && maybe that's the factor the he chose the girl. The girl was his ex, ex means the past gf which they have more history than us. Fuck him! I should look someone more serious and constant with my love or else ill play boys from now on. =(